On my mind... Natural hair, BET Awards and Planking

I love white wine. It is a beautiful thing. Ekpa suggested it cause I am doing my big chop at last but I have started sipping on it while watching the 2011 BET Awards. Again I love white wine.

I took out my weave today and I am finally going to let go of my permed ends today. Some fool on Twitter was dissing team natural hair today. But why? No one asked you to do it by force but to go dissing those who are doing it? Jobless of you. I'm loving my baby natural curls and no beefing fool on any social network can change that! {Watch the picture space for a photo of my natural hair after my big chop. Unless it's ugly!}

So anyways, I am currently watching the BET awards. OMG! Music was sent from God though. And those who play with it are...yeah fools. That seems to be all I got tonight. LOL. But really though, Mary J Blige and Anita Baker, Weezy, Chris Brown, Jill Scott, Alicia Keys and Bruno Mars...list goes on! Still waiting on Queen Bee and Kelly Rowland's performances. But so far, I am loving this awards. The winners too are making sense apart from that awkward moment they hand Best Female R&B award to Rihanna. Haven't gotten to it yet but I'm hoping the wine makes it easier not to spark. Btw, Kevin Hart is proper cruise. LMAO!

Eh heh. This planking thing. But really though? What is going on with this silly world we live in? STOP PLANKING. It's more retarded than it is funny. And no, being retarded is not cool. Dumb asses lying on the floor and taking pictures then posting em. Asin really though! Shaking my head oh. I'm shaking it for you. Stop it. Don't be foolish.

Ok bye.

Xxx

30 Day Challenge (Day 4 and 5)

I doubt there's anyone who was up watching my blog and going "darn it! She missed Day 4!" but let's flatter me and assume there was. So next I will proceed to apologize to that person... or people (did I push my luck? LOL). What can I say, I'm kinda excited to have missed a day. Shows I have a life... somewhat. Well of course I have a life! If not this blog would be kinda irrelevant... I'm rambling aren't I? Speaking of, I tried to label my posts yesterday and majority went under the label "Ranting". And now, so will this one cause I have TOTALLY gone off track!

*Stop it Tara!* Okay. I'm back :) So Day 4. My views on religion.

That picture sums up my view on religion. It's really about love; loving God and letting Him love you. 

Now, Day 5. A time you thought about ending your own life.

Okay that's deep! Who comes up with these questions anyway. I'll skip this one!

xxx

JUNE! + Beginning of my 30 day challenge

Happy new month darling people.

June and I am still in school. Damn, this year is emotional. Speaking of emotional, I just realized I've had seven days straight of an emotional slump. Not good. Can't wait to get out of here!!! All the one reason to be glad it's June now. Means my release is near. You know I liken being here, to doing time in prison and I'm almost out! LOL

Since June is 30 days, I decided to do my 30 day challenge this month. Y'all know what I'm talking about right?

I wasn't sure where to do this actually; Facebook, here or my Tumblr blog. Smh. I decided to go with here and Facebook. Tumblr already has it's own different "12 Day Challenge" which I will get to when I'm done with this one (even if it is homework oh! Boredom is a bissh) besides, I have few followers there so no need.

Anyways, before I ramble like I tend to, here goes!

Day 1: Your current relationship, if single discuss single life.

Like I said on Facebook, I think I should just skip this cause I really have NO FRIGGING IDEA where I stand. I didn't give details (cause I don't love Facebook as much as I love y'all here. LOL) but the thing is Colin and I are in highly troubled waters and I want to take some time away. He's gonna be here in school continuing the sentence when I get out so I guess that will be the time I need. 

If I really had to pick now though, I'll go with either 

a) Newly single and every intention of loving it. 

Or...

b) In a relationship that isn't so good at the moment. 

Sigh. Lord knows but I don't know why I still bother with guys. 

Till tomorrow!

Xxx 

Did You Really Think I Was Gonna Go?

LOL. But did you? Did you???

You should know by now when I want to rant. If I don't rant this night, all won't be well. Did you see that list? Somethings I can hold inside but some just have to pour out!

School. Not that much whining to be done now that I realize. Its two weeks to go. I can suck it up two more weeks. This is the last day of May! *doing a dance in my head* Do you know how amazingly fabulous that is? I get to x this zone in two weeks. I really couldn't be happier. BIO and internship can drive me crazy all they want; they just can't take away the joy of knowing this ends in TWO WEEKS. Need to get some schoolwork done though! Sheesh, I blanked on all that this weekend. Long weekend too. Monday, public holiday. I love this country!

Bee left :( She left on Friday and the weekend was awful without her! But I'm now used to not having her around again. Took me all weekend though! It's been a sad and boring weekend. I have to let by gones be by gones (God, is that really how it's spelled? Soo doesn't feel right. Anyway...) and let go of the reason that made her leave so early but can I just say this... AUN takes the f***ing piss! Yes, it was that bad that censored swearing was needed.

I actually just saw the Nigerian Entertainment Awards. I knew I shouldn't have had a look. I knew it would annoy me. But these days, I don't know what it is; I keep doing things that have the potential to upset me. It's so against my new mantra which is "Always make me happy". I need to cap sha. But that aside, the nominees in different categories are PROPER RIDICULOUS as far as I am concerned. Some people just shouldn't be there but I won't call any names before they say I am "beefing". These days, you can't give an opinion without some silly goose thinking they need to give their opinion of your opinion... but then I guess everyone should be free to give whatever opinion they want so long as it is theirs *ah headache. Stop Tara* Here's the link to the madness click here to 9ja Entertainment Awards

Lately, I've been obsessed with the Kardashians. It's becoming really bad. And I'm still missing my Blackberry! ;( Hopefully I get it back this week.

Alright I'm not in a whiny mood anymore :) Guess I just needed a little out my system like I said. I'm going to try and get some sleep now. Busy day of Biology and being bossed around in the office await me!

Sleep tight people and sweet dreams :* <3 Wishing y'all a fabulous June!

The Big One Hundred (100th post)

Hi people!

Gosh there is so much I have to whine about!

School... Colin... Bee leaving (me and going back to Abuja)... my Blackberry...THE NIGERIAN ENTERTAINMENT AWARDS (really though, how can D'banj and Darey be in a category to win an award? Shows you what people will call music nowadays) but then this isn't just any post. It's a special post.

The hundredth post. 100 posts ago, I started this journey called my blog and it has been an interesting and amazing one! I've met people through my blog, reached people, touched some and sent my messages across to others!

From writing my thoughts and feelings here and baring myself to some extent, I've learned and taught. When I look back at the first posts back in 2008, it's obvious to see how much I've grown. It's funny; my relationships, journey in school, family and friends, it's all here! You just have to read between the lines ;)

This is just a post of appreciation. A post to say thank you to those bring traffic on this blog. A post to remind you to stay true to yourself no matter what and a post to remind you to put a touch of fabulousness in all that you do! That is important!

P.S Your favorite weirdo is becoming human. Me and the roommate are getting along and I may just have a new friend. LOL. Y'all know this is huge seeing that it is ME.

Okay, I'm gone.
Xxx

And So The World Didn't End!

How crazy were all the world ending rumors? Did you guys believe any of it? I most certainly did not! And I kept saying it; "Yes, I do believe the signs of the end time are starting to show but no one is supposed to know when Jesus is coming back!" But do they ever listen? No, they don't.

Well now the world hasn't ended. I wonder how silly the people who started that feel now. The end of the world isn't the kind of thing you go "Ooops! Sorry guys, I thought I calculated that right. Maybe it's next year?"

What if some woman went and divorced her husband, sold her property and blew the money on a vacation to Bahamas because she thought the world was ending?
What if I had actually said "but the world is ending. What is the point in finishing school?" and I had dropped out? What would that genius tell us both now huh?

World's ending my foot. Get your facts right next time!

Rantings of a Summer School Newbie (Part 2)

Yes, I definitely won't enjoy summer school. What a dead dead idea.

I had my first biology class today. Teacher is cute and that is all. 10:00 to 11:50. I hate that my school does that. Might as well make it 10 to 12, let's know that the class is two hours. The cute teacher said tomorrow, we are going into a little bit of Chemistry aka he is going to call me out, open up my chest, bring out my heart and stab it repeatedly.

I HATE CHEMISTRY. See now, I took BIO 101 so as to not have to do Chemistry! So now, what is the point? What eh?

By the way, I have Biology EVERYDAY for 2 hours and Lab on Saturdays for 3 hours! So the only Biology free day for the next five weeks is Sunday. *speechless*

Internship was annoying today too. My boss made me attend the school Resume Writing Workshop and he expects a story on it tomorrow. Should be easy except that coming up with a story on something as uninteresting as resume writing is NOT easy.
Of course, let us not forget the countless things to type and mail. This job sucks. I should have gone to the radio station in town. Sure I would have more fun with that!

Moving dorms. Bless Jesus that I am not Mutallab or someone like that. I would have done some serious damage to Girls' Volpi dorm today. I get moved to a new room for summer, and when I get to the RA, she tells me I have to temporarily stay in another room cause she can't find the key to my actual room. Asin, is she kidding me? This happened just before I had to go to class so I didn't argue but when I got back and she still hadn't found the key, babes were pissed! Only to find out that there was actually someone in my room meaning I could still just go in and keep my stuff and get a key later.

But trouble again. The new roommate is quite the grinch who stole Christmas. I wonder if she is always that unpleasant or she just doesn't like me. Babe refused to let me move my things in on the grounds that I don't have a key and she wouldn't want to be leaving her key with me. After the BS day I had, I wasn't going to take more! I took her to the RA and insisted that she share her damned key till I get mine cause I must move into my room tonight.

Duh. I won. Moving rooms is HARD WORK though! Been moving things, unpacking and settling in since 7pm! And it's 9 now. I could have taken a break but when I get started, I don't like to stop till I finish and I am finished, thank God!

I'm going to pass out tonight. What a tiring day.

My cozy little corner :)

Rantings of a Summer School Newbie

I hate summer school. I have never done it and I never wanted to. I still don't want to. Unfortunately I have an internship and one more course to complete before I am fully wrapped up with college.

Yesterday, last year, is the day I went home. I am never in this school past May 10th. What for? When summer is calling? Lazing about, swims, shopping, being pampered (and ticked off) in the comfort of your house... I'll stop before I get emotional.

Summer school classes officially kick off tomorrow but I started internship today. Oh Holy Mary! Typing mails, sending them, going around looking for random things so I can type them, writing and sending in stories in limited time and having my supervisor still critic my story... all in Day One!

God help me. I hope I don't go nuts before summer school is over. Did I mention that the course I'm doing is a Biology class about Cell Inheritance WITH LAB?

Like I said, God help me!

What a Geek

Humans are never truly satisfied.

I got my grades today. After over 16 weeks of grueling work in 6 courses, I got 5 As (SUPER!) and a C+. That C+ is such a downer. Fine, it is a rather amazing result but that C+, ugh! I cannot stand it. 5 As and a B, I can take.

I have to get over it. 3.72 GPA, and the course that yielded the C+ is a stupid course. Nothing more to be done there really.

Bee said, "babe, you can like to cap. 5 As?! Haba!". Yes, I should think that way. I can't let that one C make me feel bad about all the hard work I put in this semester.

Still mehn, it hurts. Like someone poured yaji (pepper for suya. Suya is meat. Just flow with me) on a fresh wound.

Sigh, I am such a geek.

GOD IS GOOD!!!!

April 27th. God is good people. He is really good. This dreadful month ends in three days, this useless semester ends in ten days, my one year anniversary with Colin is in eleven days and I finally can breathe cause most of the semester's work is wrapping up.

Shall I say it again? God is so so GOOD.

I nearly got hit with Malaria. Monday was horrible. I felt so sick and sad and small and I really wanted my mummy but my boo boo was there, taking care of me and making me feel less miserable than I could have felt. He took me to the clinic yesterday and though I got an obscene amount of meds to take, I am now feeling better.

I submitted my Business Plan today. FINALLY! It feels so good to know that I am done with basically all my courses for the semester. Today was the last class for three courses. SBE, INF and CMD 443, Film Directing, my official favorite course in the four years I have been here. Yes people, this decides it. After conquering the world as an actress and singer, I will settle into the film making business, specifically as a director. Still, feel free to call me up before then to direct your movies. I do not mean to blow my own trumpet but I am good. Really good.

OMG, I just ranted away. Sorry about that.

Exams are next week but exams don't break me. They never have. I work for my grade during the course of the semester, not during exam week. And I am pretty confident that I have done some good work this semester. I for see As and Bs. Maybe a C in SBE but we reject it in Jesus' name, Amen!!!

Summer school starts next week and I was feeling like crap about it but I don't know what has come over me today; I feel like it's gonna be good. How bad can it be seriously? Two courses, five weeks, my boyfriend is here, and after it I am done with college. DONE! Doesn't sound so bad to me. Plus Bee might be coming! That would be the bestest :D

I am finally changing my hair tomorrow and those who know me well know that is a good thing. I love "change hair day". I just hope she gets it right; I'm trying out a new stylist cause I am too cheap to go all the way into town plus I am still kinda freaked out by the curfews and all. LOL. I don't leave this school unless I absolutely have to!

So yeah, this is one of them update posts. There is no message, no funny story, no big thing that has happened. I am just in a good mood and I felt the need to update those who care.

I love you my readers! Even if you never comment on the posts. At least you read. Xxx

Awake and Annoyed

Season's Greetings everyone. Hope everyone is having a fun Easter celebration. I am not but that was clear the moment it was certain that Bee wasn't going to come to Yola to see me. Useless protests in the North. Thank you very much Jonathan or whoever is to blame.

Anyways, my break has just been there. Same old; sleep, watch movies, spend time with Colin, spend time with me...don't feel sorry for me. I enjoy my life the way it is. Most times anyway. I have been meaning to get to school work but that will wait till later today and all of tomorrow. It's a long holiday, thank the Lord.

So I was asleep. Not a comfortable sleep; my room is way too hot and you know it's serious coming from me cause I am not particularly crazy about cold rooms. My bed and my skin don't gel; I'm always itchy on it. And there seems to be an invisible swarm of mosquitoes that bother just me cause my roommates and everyone else in this room always seem relatively good. Me, I just feel them all over...yet I can't hide under the duvet cause of the "too hot" factor. Infact, as I write, I feel itchy but I dare not cover myself. Kmt. This is a tough life mehn.

Anyway, like I said, I was asleep and in undesirable conditions. And like it wasn't bad enough that I was sleeping so uncomfortably, these lousy roommates of mine chose tonight to laugh loudly and speak Hausa in their annoying high pitched voices. Did I say "chose tonight"? My bad, they do that ALL the time. People like these girls make me wonder why murder is a crime. You should be allowed to shut these kinda people up! It is only fair.

All their chatter woke me up; I woke up sweaty and incredibly pissed. First thing I did was change my BB status to "Homesick" with a sad smiley to go. "Sick of school" would be more appropriate cause I am not so homesick. I just would rather be anywhere than where I am right now. Morning aside, I've spent the whole day by myself, with my music, Facebook and Tumblr. And Lord knows it would have been one of those blissful days if I wasn't hearing these stupid girls even with my damn earphones on.

One of them isn't even a roommate. She is just always here. Annoying, so small yet extremely loud. If I could, I would snap her in two. The other two, my roommates, are also terribly annoying. One is fat and ugly and loud. You would expect that fat and ugly would mean she is withdrawn and more focused on doing something about her poor looks but NO! Aunty won't shut up and give me a moment's peace. The other one too. Now she has to be the most annoying! She doesn't make as much noise as the others. She just keeps looking at me every now and then and I just want to look her in the eye and go "What?" in a very cold voice. Probably throw in a roll of my eyes, but I think it's just better to ignore her.

Past one in the morning and they are still squealing like rats. Let God not punish these girls sha. Kmt.

P.S Lord knows I CANNOT sleep in this bed. I will itch and/or suffocate to death before morning!

All the things I would rather do than STUDY

It's my final semester and also the first semester I have ever tackled six courses. I've sorta been taking it easy all semester because well like I said, it's my last! Person don try; four years now, I been slaving in school, making good grades and making momma and papa happy at the end of every semester. It's not beans oh.

But even though I detest this trait in myself, I can't shake it. I'm a nerd. A cool one, but a nerd all the same. I HAVE to do well in school. I have to go to class even when I tell myself that's a load of crap. Before I leave the point which I tend to do a lot, this semester I still go to classes, ask and answer questions like a good student and turn in my assignments when I should but somehow STILL, I have let a lot of work pile up. Okay maybe it just seems like a lot of work in my head (like Colin said, I probably just need to get organized and allot times to each thing I have to do). Point is there is work sha!

So instead of my usual and more enjoyable plans, I decided I'm using tonight to tackle some of that work. Besides today was a rewarding day academically. I got 100% on my INF midterms and also nailed my final INF presentation in class. And I don't even like INF! Guy doesn't give a final exam so I basically already have my A in that course. This got me really motivated. I decided to get into school and give them. Wrap it up with a bang! Make daddy and mummy and all the others who care proud.

Yet what have I spent my time doing so far? First, I've been blogging like Blogger is shutting down tomorrow. Don't know where all the chat is coming from. Second, I have redesigned my Blogging page. Third, I browsed Facebook for a bit but low key cause I am giving that a break. So no comments or nothing like that. Chatted with two people and then lied to them that I'm sleepy and that's how I cut out. What do I want to be discussing with you by 2 in the morning? Eh? Then I've read some other blogs and now I am actually feeling tired. So much for getting some work done!

This internet of a thing...get as e be. Ugh, I am not good at writing pidgin at all. LOL. x

Goodbye TEENS!

Before I start, I have such an awesome birthday! February 1st... No wonder I'm so awesome!

I have been trying so hard not to get excited cause we all know when you have high hopes for anything (especially a birthday), it can really disappoint you. However, I happen to be a birthday person and this next birthday is kinda huge personally. FINALLY, them teenage years are OVER. I turn 20 in about 20 hours!

As an almost 20 year old, I reflect on my teenage years and I must say I have had a blast. But I am very ready for the next phase. I edge away from being a girl everyday and move towards the light...the light of being a woman.

Okay I just chatted off. LOL! Point is I'm excited and I hope this next phase of life is everything I wish and plan for it to be.

Goodbye teens! :D

Back to School :( ;(

That terrible time of the year has come again; the time I go back to school. No need for long thing. I don’t like Yola, I detest schooling and I particularly cannot stand AUN. The heat, the hectic schedule, the terrible food (okay that is not so bad cos its helping me lose weight. LOL) and the annoying people. 

I already broached the topic of my amazing personality switch when I am in that environment. I’ve been home about a month now and I am sweet and loving and peaceful. Back to school means time to change that. But not this year. I want to remain sweet, loving and peaceful.

So here is a plea to AUN. This semester, in the name of God, leave me alone and I will do same. I won’t be a bitch if I am not given a reason to be one. I’ll be nice if you are too. I will mind my business and you mind yours too. No gossip, no chat, no drama. Let us all have a peaceful semester with love and lack of tatafo. Remember, talking about someone, no matter how nasty what you're saying may be, you are only giving the person hype. So if you don't like me, it is best to endure inwards rather than talk bad about me and give me more notice.

This I ask of you all! Thanks mush!