Still I Rise

You may write me down in history
With your bitter, twisted lies,
You may trod me in the very dirt
But still, like dust, I'll rise.

Does my sassiness upset you?
Why are you beset with gloom?
'Cause I walk like I've got oil wells
Pumping in my living room.

Just like moons and like suns,
With the certainty of tides,
Just like hopes springing high,
Still I'll rise.

Did you want to see me broken?
Bowed head and lowered eyes?
Shoulders falling down like teardrops.
Weakened by my soulful cries.

Does my haughtiness offend you?
Don't you take it awful hard
'Cause I laugh like I've got gold mines
Diggin' in my own back yard.

You may shoot me with your words,
You may cut me with your eyes,
You may kill me with your hatefulness,
But still, like air, I'll rise.

Does my sexiness upset you?
Does it come as a surprise
That I dance like I've got diamonds
At the meeting of my thighs?

Out of the huts of history's shame
I rise
Up from a past that's rooted in pain
I rise
I'm a black ocean, leaping and wide,
Welling and swelling I bear in the tide.
Leaving behind nights of terror and fear
I rise
Into a daybreak that's wondrously clear
I rise
Bringing the gifts that my ancestors gave,
I am the dream and the hope of the slave.
I rise
I rise
I rise. 


That's a poem by Maya Angelou. Beautiful words. <3

Random

This poem is RANDOM. Just random flows in my head. 

When you wake up, I won’t be there.

Cause I now realize that you don’t care.

When you wake up, I’ll be gone

Being with you is no longer fun.

No more will I stress...

For you, I won’t pull out my Freakum dress!

Just yesterday you were my greatest desire

Now all you do is make me tired

Which one of us is to blame?

How did we screw up this love game?

I know you don’t want to lose me

But it’s time I set myself free

So I’m saying “Dueces” baby

You need to find yourself another lady ;)

All Woman Now

I was working on a script for my Film Directing class and I don't know why it hit me at that exact moment, but that's when it hit. It hit that by June this year, I will hold a Bachelor's degree in Communications and Multimedia. It hit that by that time, collecting an allowance from my dad would be lame. It hit that childhood is now behind and it's time to think of myself as an adult that can and should stand on her own two feet.

The other day, my sister asked me about my plans after graduation. I had no idea. I still have no idea actually and the realization that I still haven't made up my mind about something as simple as grad school or NYSC scared me to death. Where am I going? What are my plans for the future? Where do I see myself in the next ten years? It is no longer enough to just ask myself these questions; I have to set the ball in motion to answer them for myself. It's time to finally "woman-up" and take charge of my life and steer it in the direction I see it going.

Taking charge won't happen overnight. It'll be a gradual process and sometimes, I may slip up and act like a child (With my mum around not wanting me to grow up too fast, I really won't grow up too fast! LOL) but I must start now to recognize that adulthood is what comes next and the ways I had as a child should be deserted for new and matured approaches to life.

*I put God first. He is the author and finisher of our destinies and when you let Him, he will lead you in the right path.
*I've made my Twitter name something more sophisticated and grown up but it's not boring (at least not to me!).
*I've learned to control my temper. Walk away from a fight or a confrontation. There is always a way for two people to resolve an issue peacefully.
*I'm starting to talk to people that could play key roles in my future dreams and aspirations.

So you see, it's a start! Rome wasn't built in a day so I won't become the woman I want to be overnight. Still, the ball has been set rolling. From now, it's all WOMAN. x

Sliding Into the 20s Club

So from my last post (if you're a true reader of this blog!) you probably already know that last week Tuesday (Feb 1) was my 20th birthday. It was an amazing day, with amazing photos, that I have decided to share with you.

The day started off with an argument with Colin. I think he has a thing for drama on special days (his birthday, Christmas...thankfully he freed New Years!) but I refused to let my day be ruined by anything. Even easier when I have my ball of fun and energy around me. Cynthia gave the minute I turned 20 so much hype with a video and hugs and kisses. She was the first person I spoke to in my 20s. Nice start :)

After that, C and I went to bed. We had a lot to drink night before and the fact that we were still standing was actually amazing! Before bed, Mum called and I already got texts coming in and people on Twitter and Facebook showing love. It's amazing how much love you feel on your birthday. In the morning, we kicked off nice with music in the room (they let my playlist run! That never happens cause my songs are somewhat...odd to others). I also took my first picture as a 20 yr old and damn this age looks good on me!

My birthday was a hot day! And luckily for me, I had no classes that day (AUN's gift) so I really spent most of the day indoors. Udoka dropped by and oh well, that resulted in a makeup session and lots of pictures and videos. The videos...oh wow. You want to see but I don't want you to! Highly crazy and therefore highly personal :P Here's a picture though (L-R Udoka, Cynthia and me).

After the fun time indoors, evening finally came. That's when Cynthia and I headed out to pick up the cake and buy drinks for the evening. The plan was to go out to dinner with my girls in this cute restaurant we saw in town, and then after dinner, drink up with the boys. We were already very behind schedule though so by the time everyone would have been ready, the restaurant would have closed. Change of plans and the new plan was Fire Service. Quite yucky a place especially after the cute restaurant but the new me is determined not to let what I can't change affect me. That also goes for Colin's attitude which was less than pleasant and which I also chose to ignore! He had apologized earlier in the day but I guess his ego was still bruised. Men. SMH.

I didn't have a lot of people come out for my birthday cause I didn't want a lot of people. I should be a people-person with the career I'm headed into but I find myself running away from people these days. I normally like to either be alone or be with Cynthia or Colin as far as AUN goes. Of course I wasn't going to spend my day with only them. So I had a few people come too. Stephanie (Cynthia's sister), Medinat, Kami, Ope, Cynthia and I made the girls. And the guys were Colin, Deji, Tesan, Martin, Ike and Gozie. My birthday crowd was actually a perfect one.

The girls definitely looked too dressed up for Fire Service but we did not send! if there is anything me and my girls do right, it's looking fabulous no matter what and ESPECIALLY for fabulous occasions.

At fire service, we CHILLED. Drinks, fish, laughs and soooo many pictures. When the alcohol was working, even Colin loosened up and started to enjoy himself. Good for him cause I was just gonna keep ignoring him if he remained in a bad mood! When it was time to cut the cake, I cut it with Cynthia and nobody enjoyed that cake more than she did! Now I know where I'm getting her birthday cake in the next two months!

After cake, to finish the last bottle, Colin started up the Concentration Game. That made me happy. And it was fun. When you slip, you drink. Think I slipped twice. Stephanie slipped a lot! Cynthia and Colin never slipped. Wonder how...

After the game and the emptying of the bottle, we were all ready to go back to school. In ONE car. Sheesh!

See more pictures from my amazing day on Facebook: http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=367144&id=728582714&l=5bb2ce31d9