Did You Really Think I Was Gonna Go?

LOL. But did you? Did you???

You should know by now when I want to rant. If I don't rant this night, all won't be well. Did you see that list? Somethings I can hold inside but some just have to pour out!

School. Not that much whining to be done now that I realize. Its two weeks to go. I can suck it up two more weeks. This is the last day of May! *doing a dance in my head* Do you know how amazingly fabulous that is? I get to x this zone in two weeks. I really couldn't be happier. BIO and internship can drive me crazy all they want; they just can't take away the joy of knowing this ends in TWO WEEKS. Need to get some schoolwork done though! Sheesh, I blanked on all that this weekend. Long weekend too. Monday, public holiday. I love this country!

Bee left :( She left on Friday and the weekend was awful without her! But I'm now used to not having her around again. Took me all weekend though! It's been a sad and boring weekend. I have to let by gones be by gones (God, is that really how it's spelled? Soo doesn't feel right. Anyway...) and let go of the reason that made her leave so early but can I just say this... AUN takes the f***ing piss! Yes, it was that bad that censored swearing was needed.

I actually just saw the Nigerian Entertainment Awards. I knew I shouldn't have had a look. I knew it would annoy me. But these days, I don't know what it is; I keep doing things that have the potential to upset me. It's so against my new mantra which is "Always make me happy". I need to cap sha. But that aside, the nominees in different categories are PROPER RIDICULOUS as far as I am concerned. Some people just shouldn't be there but I won't call any names before they say I am "beefing". These days, you can't give an opinion without some silly goose thinking they need to give their opinion of your opinion... but then I guess everyone should be free to give whatever opinion they want so long as it is theirs *ah headache. Stop Tara* Here's the link to the madness click here to 9ja Entertainment Awards

Lately, I've been obsessed with the Kardashians. It's becoming really bad. And I'm still missing my Blackberry! ;( Hopefully I get it back this week.

Alright I'm not in a whiny mood anymore :) Guess I just needed a little out my system like I said. I'm going to try and get some sleep now. Busy day of Biology and being bossed around in the office await me!

Sleep tight people and sweet dreams :* <3 Wishing y'all a fabulous June!

The Big One Hundred (100th post)

Hi people!

Gosh there is so much I have to whine about!

School... Colin... Bee leaving (me and going back to Abuja)... my Blackberry...THE NIGERIAN ENTERTAINMENT AWARDS (really though, how can D'banj and Darey be in a category to win an award? Shows you what people will call music nowadays) but then this isn't just any post. It's a special post.

The hundredth post. 100 posts ago, I started this journey called my blog and it has been an interesting and amazing one! I've met people through my blog, reached people, touched some and sent my messages across to others!

From writing my thoughts and feelings here and baring myself to some extent, I've learned and taught. When I look back at the first posts back in 2008, it's obvious to see how much I've grown. It's funny; my relationships, journey in school, family and friends, it's all here! You just have to read between the lines ;)

This is just a post of appreciation. A post to say thank you to those bring traffic on this blog. A post to remind you to stay true to yourself no matter what and a post to remind you to put a touch of fabulousness in all that you do! That is important!

P.S Your favorite weirdo is becoming human. Me and the roommate are getting along and I may just have a new friend. LOL. Y'all know this is huge seeing that it is ME.

Okay, I'm gone.
Xxx

Billboards Awards 2011; Rihanna and Britney Spears

Here it goes. The second performance I was interested in. It surpassed my expectations really. I knew it would be bad, but dear Lord! This was ridiculous.

I don't know if they thought it was sexy or entertaining. It was an embarrassment. Rihanna still can't sing to save her life, and Britney cannot make a come back no matter how hard she may try. They looked like lost porn stars who had mistakenly found themselves on a stage with microphones and decided to catch cruise.

Cruise. But the cruise was on them.

Billboards Awards 2011; Beyonce

So much noise about the Billboard Awards. I didn't watch it but in this internet savvy world, you gon be seeing it everywhere. So yeah, the Billboard Awards have been an internet buzz since Sunday. The performances, the fashion...celebs can be fascinating. But the most fascinating of them all is BEYONCE! She is beyond incredible!

I loooove Beyonce. All those who know me well, know this. She is like my idol. I want to be like her when I grow up. Even her influence and stand in the business, I want that! Beyonce is what's up! She been on the DL for a bit, prolly enjoying and chilling being Mrs. Carter. I don't blame her. If I were Jay Z's wife, I would never lift a finger! But then she is extraordinary like that to not get lazy and enjoy her husband's money. She still making hers!

The Billboard Awards had a few performances, so I've read. But I was only interested in two. Beyonce's and the second one, well that'll get its own post in a bit.

Without talking too much, Beyonce is back! Her performance was AMAZING. I loved every bit of it! The moves, the outfit, the concept, her look, her VOICE...sigh. Y'all just see for yourself. I can't shout.

And So The World Didn't End!

How crazy were all the world ending rumors? Did you guys believe any of it? I most certainly did not! And I kept saying it; "Yes, I do believe the signs of the end time are starting to show but no one is supposed to know when Jesus is coming back!" But do they ever listen? No, they don't.

Well now the world hasn't ended. I wonder how silly the people who started that feel now. The end of the world isn't the kind of thing you go "Ooops! Sorry guys, I thought I calculated that right. Maybe it's next year?"

What if some woman went and divorced her husband, sold her property and blew the money on a vacation to Bahamas because she thought the world was ending?
What if I had actually said "but the world is ending. What is the point in finishing school?" and I had dropped out? What would that genius tell us both now huh?

World's ending my foot. Get your facts right next time!

Love Love Love!

When Love is nice, it is really nice.
And when it sucks, geez! It REALLY sucks.
But Love is lovely
Lovely lovely love
I know I'm not making any sense
But that was never the point
I just felt the need to blab
Bout how much I love Love today :D


Yes I'm still mentally okay...I think. xxx

Gravity

"Gravity" by Sara Bareilles

Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.
No matter what I say or do I'll still feel you here 'til the moment I'm gone.

You hold me without touch.
You keep me without chains.
I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love and not feel your rain.

[CHORUS:]
Set me free, leave me be. I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me and all over me.

You loved me 'cause I'm fragile.
When I thought that I was strong.
But you touch me for a little while and all my fragile strength is gone.

[CHORUS]

I live here on my knees as I try to make you see that you're everything I think I need here on the ground.
But you're neither friend nor foe though I can't seem to let you go.
The one thing that I still know is that you're keeping me down
You're on to me, on to me, and all over...
Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long. 

I love this song. It's one of my Colin songs too *blush*

P.S "Colin songs" are songs that make me think of him.

Mini Update

1. I have an annoying burn on my shoulder courtesy of Bee trying to curl my hair on grad morning. Currently Bio-oiling it and praying it goes away.

2. BIO 101 is not funny at all. Had the first exam today and it was less than great. Lab quiz later today and of course, the joyful three hours of lab I dream of and look forward to every weekend *RME*

3. So much for my break up. Colin ambushed me today on my way to my exam and refused to let me go till I forgave him and we got back together. He is a bully. But a sweet one :)

4. Internship is ridiculously annoying. I wish I could quit. On Tuesday, I was made to attend the graduation ceremony of the community school (Kindergarten 3 and Grade 6 graduated *barf*) and my boss expects a story on that. In addition to that, I am working on 4 other stories and they keep piling up.

5. Trying to help Bee get her fab on. She feels she's added weight so I have decided to share my tips with her. She is not enjoying em so far but at least she admits they have worked for me and she is giving it a shot.

6. 21 days to go before I am done done DONE with summer school and on my way home! :D

7. My blackberry broke on Sunday and I am gonna just chill out on getting it fixed. The hiatus is good for me.

8. As my blackberry is down, I am quite active on Facebook.

9. The Kardashians and Bee almost made me re-open Twitter this week. Shameful.

10. Getting myself a bottle of red wine after today's class and work hours. IT IS NEEDED.

That's all for now. Xxx

Graduation Weekend

Four years and finally, graduation came. It was rather amazing. I'm too tired to go into detail like I normally would so for those of my readers that were expecting my usual way of telling a story, pele (that's sorry for my Non-Nigerian readers).

Anyways, I'll start from Friday. During our graduation rehearsals, our graduation tent was destroyed by a sandstorm and we all had to run out before it fell on us. Talk about your Friday the 13th spectacle. I try not to believe in that stuff but you must admit weird things or uncool things always manage to happen on Friday the 13th!

Friday was Grad party at this club in town. Bee came into town the day before so I had a girlie to go party with. The club was packed and everyone there was happy and relaxed and looked real nice too. The only spectacular thing to talk about concerning this party is the booze. It just kept coming! Vodka is not my friend but that night, I had to let loose so we got close and boy, did it loosen me up! I had way more fun than I expected to and I danced a lot. Colin got me two bottles of champagne and of course, poured it all over me before finally giving me a chance to drink em.
Bee and I had to x the party when we realized we couldn't stand straight anymore. LOL

P.S Don't judge me. Last time I really danced and enjoyed myself at a social function of that nature was sometime last year. Infact before Grad party night, I wasn't sure if I still 20 or now 45!

Cynthia D and I

Bella and I

So Saturday was mostly terrible. When you drink vodka like it's water and continue with champagne, you are bound to get a hangover. If you are me anyway. And that is what Saturday was about for moi. I felt sick all day and had to sleep a whole lot before feeling a little human again. 

My parents got in in the evening with my Auntie Sandie for the Awards Dinner for graduating seniors. I had planned to dress up but I ended up playing it down cause I lost the mood. All I wanted to do was eat the food and go back to my room to sleep. But my amazing family slowly got me in the mood to celebrate. Aunt Sandie didn't stop taking pictures and she got quite some amazing ones! 

Mi familia

P.S Notice the picture of me on the table? That was pretty cool of AUN to frame pictures of each graduating senior. 

Sunday, yesterday, was the main graduation day. It was long oh! But real nice. And I felt so much love and pride from my family and friends, both those with me and those who called or Facebooked me...it was amazing actually :) The ceremony was tasteful and even with our tent being ruined, AUN was able to still handle affairs and give us a really nice ceremony. 

OMG I took pictures eh! Aunt Sandie's camera, my camera, other people's cameras, phones...I feel like I must have taken close to 500 pictures yesterday alone! I don't mind if I don't take another picture this year. LOL. 

After all the pictures, we all went to get some rest and went out to the university club house for dinner. Yes, more pictures.

                                                                             

Me and Auntie Sandie

Family and a few lecturers

That's my Graduation weekend in a nutshell. As always, for more pictures, check Facebook.
Graduation Facebook album

Xxx

Break Up

I hate break ups.

They really suck and have a way of making you feel sad even when you have a lot to be happy for. I recently broke up with Colin and I am now suffering from the break up blues. Thankfully, I did it around a time of extreme joy; my Graduation from college. So I've been surrounded by too much love to feel his absence.

Too much love, and also too much work. BIO 101 is quite kicking my butt and my supervisor isn't even taking it easy with me. I wish I had a break today from Graduation weekend. But I did sleep from 2pm to 8pm so I guess I've gotten my rest and should stop whining.

Can't wait for summer school to finish so I can get my degree and get the hell outta this joint!

Sigh, I do miss him though. But that's it for me and relationships. At least for a while. Boys/ men are just TOO much work right now. Even more work than BIO and internship! xxx

Star Player

Katt Williams may be a comedian but he gave a pretty amazing concert in DC where he kept telling em something about haters. He said "when you are a real nigga, they gonna hate".

Keep it real and there will always be those that hate you for that. With everything they got. You just have to focus on the star player in this game called life and the star player is that person you see in the mirror everyday.

Since 2011 started, I've been all about my star player. This isn't being selfish and neither is it being unconcerned. I still care about others around me, try to make em happy when I can, sacrifice things to please others...but unlike other years past, I can't and don't kill myself over people's desires. Moment I'm not happy, I make changes cause I'm focusing on me.

I have this person that sends me hate mail (I call it that cause she never has anything positive to say. She insults me and I guess the purpose of her mails are to put me down) and yesterday, she sent what I hope is her last one. I didn't read it cause there is no point reading that piece of crap. She doesn't know me, and she probably wishes she did. I say she doesn't know me cause while she may always seem to have info on the happenings of my life, she has no idea about my perspective on these happenings. She must think and hope that I am depressed, sitting in a corner with regrets. Sorry to disappoint her and all the other haters out there, that is not me.

Things haven't worked out the way I thought they would but still, I am strong, happy and ready for the next phase of life with an amazing family and though a few, some very amazing friends all rooting for me, loving me and giving me support.

And so today is the day I have waited for for a very LONG time. Graduation :D My family has come from Abuja and those who couldn't make it have been calling in with prayers and well wishes. That's another thing about being real; there will be haters, but there will be those who see YOU and will love you just the way you are.

To my readers, keep being real, not just to yourself but to everyone. Let those that have a problem with it  go and hug a transformer or something. In this life, you really owe yourself happiness and you have the power to make yourself happy. Not a boyfriend, your best friend...it's YOU.

Start putting your star player first. Xxx

Rantings of a Summer School Newbie (Part 2)

Yes, I definitely won't enjoy summer school. What a dead dead idea.

I had my first biology class today. Teacher is cute and that is all. 10:00 to 11:50. I hate that my school does that. Might as well make it 10 to 12, let's know that the class is two hours. The cute teacher said tomorrow, we are going into a little bit of Chemistry aka he is going to call me out, open up my chest, bring out my heart and stab it repeatedly.

I HATE CHEMISTRY. See now, I took BIO 101 so as to not have to do Chemistry! So now, what is the point? What eh?

By the way, I have Biology EVERYDAY for 2 hours and Lab on Saturdays for 3 hours! So the only Biology free day for the next five weeks is Sunday. *speechless*

Internship was annoying today too. My boss made me attend the school Resume Writing Workshop and he expects a story on it tomorrow. Should be easy except that coming up with a story on something as uninteresting as resume writing is NOT easy.
Of course, let us not forget the countless things to type and mail. This job sucks. I should have gone to the radio station in town. Sure I would have more fun with that!

Moving dorms. Bless Jesus that I am not Mutallab or someone like that. I would have done some serious damage to Girls' Volpi dorm today. I get moved to a new room for summer, and when I get to the RA, she tells me I have to temporarily stay in another room cause she can't find the key to my actual room. Asin, is she kidding me? This happened just before I had to go to class so I didn't argue but when I got back and she still hadn't found the key, babes were pissed! Only to find out that there was actually someone in my room meaning I could still just go in and keep my stuff and get a key later.

But trouble again. The new roommate is quite the grinch who stole Christmas. I wonder if she is always that unpleasant or she just doesn't like me. Babe refused to let me move my things in on the grounds that I don't have a key and she wouldn't want to be leaving her key with me. After the BS day I had, I wasn't going to take more! I took her to the RA and insisted that she share her damned key till I get mine cause I must move into my room tonight.

Duh. I won. Moving rooms is HARD WORK though! Been moving things, unpacking and settling in since 7pm! And it's 9 now. I could have taken a break but when I get started, I don't like to stop till I finish and I am finished, thank God!

I'm going to pass out tonight. What a tiring day.

My cozy little corner :)

Rantings of a Summer School Newbie

I hate summer school. I have never done it and I never wanted to. I still don't want to. Unfortunately I have an internship and one more course to complete before I am fully wrapped up with college.

Yesterday, last year, is the day I went home. I am never in this school past May 10th. What for? When summer is calling? Lazing about, swims, shopping, being pampered (and ticked off) in the comfort of your house... I'll stop before I get emotional.

Summer school classes officially kick off tomorrow but I started internship today. Oh Holy Mary! Typing mails, sending them, going around looking for random things so I can type them, writing and sending in stories in limited time and having my supervisor still critic my story... all in Day One!

God help me. I hope I don't go nuts before summer school is over. Did I mention that the course I'm doing is a Biology class about Cell Inheritance WITH LAB?

Like I said, God help me!

What a Geek

Humans are never truly satisfied.

I got my grades today. After over 16 weeks of grueling work in 6 courses, I got 5 As (SUPER!) and a C+. That C+ is such a downer. Fine, it is a rather amazing result but that C+, ugh! I cannot stand it. 5 As and a B, I can take.

I have to get over it. 3.72 GPA, and the course that yielded the C+ is a stupid course. Nothing more to be done there really.

Bee said, "babe, you can like to cap. 5 As?! Haba!". Yes, I should think that way. I can't let that one C make me feel bad about all the hard work I put in this semester.

Still mehn, it hurts. Like someone poured yaji (pepper for suya. Suya is meat. Just flow with me) on a fresh wound.

Sigh, I am such a geek.

The End and the Beginning; the week of TERROR!!!

I missed blogging. I have just been way too busy this past week. No blogging, no Tumblr, no Facebook, nothing! It's been work work WORK! And so you don't think, "yeah yeah, what work could she have been doing?", I'm gonna list em out. And I am not exaggerating!

P.S Everything I'm listing had to be turned in this week. Or, was done this week.

My two active (LOL) SDP group members and I

*Senior Design Project (SDP) which is basically a test in form of a project to access if you have really learned anything in the four years in your program. I'm studying TV/ Film as some of you may know and my SDP was to produce a thirty minute show featuring news, music, fashion, an interview with a personality and finally, the community expressions or thoughts.
         Thankfully I didn't have to do this alone! We were paired in groups and I worked with 4 others (2 if you really count the people that WORKED) to produce an amazing show which was finally presented to the Communications and Multimedia (CMD) faculty yesterday afternoon. IT WENT GREAT! :D

*A thirty page script (Act One only) of a story I created and developed myself. This was for my Scriptwriting class. I actually really enjoyed this so it wasn't so much work but it was still pretty tasking and it kept me busy.

*A short dramatic movie that I had to shoot, direct and edit. Final project for Film Directing class. Started working on that late and it didn't pay. I will NEVER wait till the last minute again to get my work done. NEVER!!! Also had a take home exam in this course that I turned in this past week.

*Two written exams; INF and SBE. SBE was not cool, INF was super!

Now you get the "week of terror" drift. It didn't help that I was also having boyfriend troubles upon all the work. Thank gosh that's sorted now though :)

This past week, I haven't slept decently. When it all ended yesterday, I felt like I should just pass out flat and sleep for a 100 years like Sleeping Beauty did but then, I'd miss a lot plus I am quite the restless type so I probably couldn't pull that off. I am SOOOO exhausted right now and yet, I can't help but stay awake, watching movies and now, blogging.

Then again, it could just be because my room is really uncomfortable that I can't sleep. Damn the man who was supposed to come fix this AC.

Spring 2011 is over. FINALLY! Like Michael said on the bus today, "this semester did not have head or tail". LOL. I won't put it in those words but his point, which is the oddity of this semester, is one I definitely agree with. I don't think there is a soul happier than mine about the end of this semester!
         Next up is summer school starting on Monday. Wish I could have a proper break between this semester and summer school; go home or something but it's all good! I'm a survivor.
         Graduation in 8 days! At last, I put on that gown and walk proudly. Four years, especially in a school like mine, in a town like Yola...it is not beans. Not at all.

Peace and love people. Pray for me to get some sleep! Xxx

Break from editing in the lab to pose for the camera!

During the SDP presentations.