Thursday, June 30, 2011

On my mind... Natural hair, BET Awards and Planking

I love white wine. It is a beautiful thing. Ekpa suggested it cause I am doing my big chop at last but I have started sipping on it while watching the 2011 BET Awards. Again I love white wine.

I took out my weave today and I am finally going to let go of my permed ends today. Some fool on Twitter was dissing team natural hair today. But why? No one asked you to do it by force but to go dissing those who are doing it? Jobless of you. I'm loving my baby natural curls and no beefing fool on any social network can change that! {Watch the picture space for a photo of my natural hair after my big chop. Unless it's ugly!}

So anyways, I am currently watching the BET awards. OMG! Music was sent from God though. And those who play with it are...yeah fools. That seems to be all I got tonight. LOL. But really though, Mary J Blige and Anita Baker, Weezy, Chris Brown, Jill Scott, Alicia Keys and Bruno Mars...list goes on! Still waiting on Queen Bee and Kelly Rowland's performances. But so far, I am loving this awards. The winners too are making sense apart from that awkward moment they hand Best Female R&B award to Rihanna. Haven't gotten to it yet but I'm hoping the wine makes it easier not to spark. Btw, Kevin Hart is proper cruise. LMAO!

Eh heh. This planking thing. But really though? What is going on with this silly world we live in? STOP PLANKING. It's more retarded than it is funny. And no, being retarded is not cool. Dumb asses lying on the floor and taking pictures then posting em. Asin really though! Shaking my head oh. I'm shaking it for you. Stop it. Don't be foolish.

Ok bye.

Xxx

30 Day Challenge; THE LAST DAY!

Last day of June! Nice nice NOICE.

Highs and lows of the month.

I'll just do a high and a low cause my mind is drawing blank. My high of this month was definitely leaving AUN once and for all and coming back to Abuja to a beautiful new home. I looove our new place. It is fabo!

My low...okay here I can do lows. LOL. There was the uncomfortable period with my sprained ankle, there was having to deal with Biology and being in school past the month of May and of course the falling sick.

That's about it! I just want to say thank you to those who left comments or any form of feedback. I love you guys :)

30 Day Challenge, signing out!

Xxx

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Wednesday, June 29, 2011

30 Day Challenge (Day 28 & 29)

June ends tomorrow! Can you believe it? I still remember the first day of the year and now here we are at the end of the first half! This time is sure flying by at an alarming rate.

I'm blogging from my phone; it feels so weird and tiny! Forgive any stupid mistakes I may make.

Day 28; Something that you miss.

Right now, I miss being well more than anything else. I've been down with malaria since Thursday last week and it went away after I took some drugs but yesterday, I started feeling sick again :( So that's it, I miss being my energetic and healthy self. Taking it slow sucks.

Day 29; Goals for the next 30 days

Basically, I'm just going to live life one day at a time. I'll still be going to work, still working on the beach body and hopefully, get a lot of, or pretty decent studio time.

I'm too weak for long talks so goodbyes!

Xxx

Monday, June 27, 2011

30 Day Challenge (Days 23- 27)

Sigh. I need to keep this brief before it becomes a book or an essay. Lol.

Day 23; Give pictures of 5 guys who are famous and you find attractive.






Sigh. These men, these men.

Day 24; Your favorite movie and what it's about.

My favorite movie at the moment (cause I don't have a main one) is Just Go With It. It's a romantic comedy with Adam Sandler and Jennifer Aniston. Adam Sandler is a plastic surgeon and Jennifer Aniston is his assistant. I'm not going to go into what the movie is about cause then I'd be killing the purpose of Google. Allow this 30 Day Challenge and it's wahala. Anyhoos, it's a great movie and y'all should see it if you haven't already.

Day 25; Someone who fascinates you and why.

Easy. Bella, my sister. Why? Cause she is emosh (that's Rae's slang for 'emotional'. Yes, my sisters are deep people). Like I said I'm keeping it short so I'll just show you an example of Bee at her prime.

A tweet of Bee's from earlier today;

"So Rihanna won Best Female at the BET awards. In a category Beyonce and Jennifer Hudson were in. These people don't respect that Jesus wept. Cool"

She said she ended it with "cool" cause of the character limit. LOL. I can't. I just can't.

Day 26; What kind of person attracts you

Someone... laid back, loves a good time, not scary to look at, funny, not spiteful or malicious, a KIND person, a caring person, a REAL person and lastly, someone who knows and loves GOD.

Day 27; A problem that you have had.

Lol. Dumb question. Lemme see... oooh! I have a problem with my boyfriends having total trust in me... NOT! Do other girls have this problem or is it just me?

I dey come!

My 30 Day Challenge though. Smh. I've missed four whole days now. Well. been sick with malaria since my last post so I haven't exactly been on "omg, I need to do my 30 day challenge!". Just been focused on getting better which thankfully, I am now. Not a 100% but almost there.

New week, busy as a bee again. Wonder if I'll ever get to it but I hate to start something and not finish it so I'm sure I will. I DEY COME!

Rihanna won best R&B Female Artist when Beyonce, Jennifer Hudson and Marcia Ambrio... bla bla bla were in the same category. I can't. I can't take it anymore.

I have to go for my morning walk now. Peace peoples! x

Thursday, June 23, 2011

30 Day Challenge (Day 20, 21 & 22)

Since I started work on Monday, my routine is pretty basic.

Wake up, go jogging, shower and get ready for work, work till 5pm, meet up with Bee and Obi wherever they may be for a little chill time, go back home, and CRASH. I literally do not have time for anything else but the aforementioned. The life of an intern working 9 to 5.

Anyways, this would explain why I have slacked on the 30 Day Challenge. That and the fact that I get no feedback! Seriously, I know people are reading this. I can see it! So just comment for the love of God! It cannot be THAT hard to.

Well...back to the 30 day Challenge. 7 more days left. June's gone by pretty quickly hasn't it?



Day 20; How important you think education is.

I think it is pretty important but I also think one can function and make tons of money without it. So it makes you wonder; if we are getting educated so we can get good jobs and make money, those who have made money without education must be cracking up at all the suffering and stress we go through in the name of learning.

Day 21; One of your favourite shows.

I am not a TV or movie person like I must have said here, once or twice. But there are some pretty amazing TV shows that I love. I wish the question was "some of your favourite shows" cause picking just one is kinda tough. Still, as I have to name one, I have to give it to the ever classic FRIENDS.


I can't even choose a favorite character cause I love them all! Rachel is adorable and ditsy, Phoebe is proper WEIRD, Monica gives me cruise, Joey is dumb in an endearing way, Ross cracks me up and Chandler...sigh. Chandler is just deep. Love his sarcasm. I wish I had a group of Friends like these guys but I am not sure which of the girls I would be. I have a little bit of all three girls in me!

Which of the FRIENDS cast members could you be? (See now, a QUESTION. Meaning ANSWERS/REPLIES by way of COMMENTS would be appreciated!)

Day 22; How have you changed in the past two years?

HA! A LOT. A WHOLE LOT. I have to start getting ready for work so I'll make this short.

1. I've dropped some pounds and still working on dropping more.
2. I cut my hair last year, then 5 months after, decided to go natural.
3. Tattoos and piercings...
4. I've reshuffled my friends and the people I associate myself with. BEST CHANGE YET!
5. I've learned to take my life seriously but not so seriously that I forget to enjoy it.
6. I'm happier now and I have better peace of mind.


2009 me


2011 me













I will not miss today's (Day 23) challenge. It's a yummy one ;) lAT3RS!

Xxx


Sunday, June 19, 2011

Update

What's new...

1. I'm home now. Finally away from evil clenches of Yola and AUN. Praise be to God!
2. I rejoined Twitter. Bee's tweets finally did it.
3. I start my internship tomorrow. To freaking morrow!!! I need more chilling time man.
4. I've started job hunting. I don't want to be an unemployed graduate.

That's it.

Don't worry. Things will happen and I'll get interesting again.

xxx

Happy Father's Day!

Taking responsibility isn't easy. Some people spend their entire lives running away from their responsibilities either cause they can't handle them or because they just can't be bothered. Being a father is one of the biggest responsibilities there is. You play a role in shaping a person's life! You provide for them, protect them, love them, teach them and advice them.

We've all heard the phrase "daddy issues" and while it may sound like a load of crap to some, truth is people who have fathers that didn't do right by them are more often that not, extremely MESSED UP.

Today is a special day to appreciate the men who stepped up and raised their kid(s). They've paid the bills, bought birthday presents and put presents under the tree at Christmas, given their love, corrected us when we've made mistakes, disciplined us, turned frowns to smiles, made us laugh when we want to cry and encouraged us through all that we do.

Happy Father's Day to all the amazing dads out there! xxx



Bee and Papa

P.S I have a picture of my dad holding me in the hospital the day after I was born but I am too lazy to get up, look for it, scan it and then upload it.

30 Day Challenge (Day 17, 18 & 19)

There is no rule you have to do this daily right? As long as you go through all the days at least. That should count for something. Lol.



Day 17; Your highs and lows of the past year

I'll start with highs.
*Meeting and falling for my boyfriend. I love being in love :)
*Summer last year; got to see family I hadn't seen in a while and so on.
*Getting trimmer and finer. LOL
*Turning 20. It's rather nice not to have an age that ends with "teen"
*GRADUATING!!!
*And finally, getting rid of all the extra baggage in my life, literally and figuratively speaking.

Now the lows...
*Falling for Colin. Yes, love is a high and a low if you ask me!
*Realizing certain people in my life were hurting me more than they were helping me.
*Extended periods of time in Yola (LOL.That's the only way I know how to put it).

Thank God I've had more highs than lows! If I was doing this list a few years back, oh my days.

Day 18; Your beliefs

Shoo. Beliefs on what? I really do need to contact the fellow who put this 30 day challenge together. My beliefs...

I believe everyone has the ability to make themselves happy. I believe in love. I believe Michael Jackson never touched little boys; they were just pure sleepovers. I believe that if nobody talks about you, it's worse than when they do. I BELIEVE IN HATERS. I believe there's a difference between love and true love and you only get the latter from God and your parents (or children). Humans aren't really capable. I believe it's easy to feel lonely but it's just as easy not to. Lastly, I believe in ME. I believe in my future, my very bright future.

Day 19; Disrespecting your parents

I'm guessing what is expected is my view on disrespecting parents. Funny I get to this on Father's day. Yes, today is Father's Day for those of you who didn't know.

Anyways, I think disrespecting your parents is the worst. I don't like to disrespect anyone in the first place, talk less of older people and TALK LESS of your PARENTS. The people who brought you into this world, nutured you and loved you UNCONDITIONALLY. I feel that if you disrespect your parents, you disrespect God and even your own self. I also feel there is a karmic reward for disrespecting parents; when you have your own kids, they won't respect you too!

Eleven more days left in my challenge (and in the month). Is it just me or is time flying at a crazy pace this year?!

xxx

Thursday, June 16, 2011

30 Day Challenge (Day 14, 15 & 16)

I have missed two days in a row. That never happens but I been busy and life gets in the way of blogging as we all know! Anyways...

Day 14; Your earliest memory

I was about 3 years old and my mum was sick. Our help at that time was told to bring some hot water in a bowl to my mum's room. What for, I'm not exactly sure. So as the maid was coming into the room with the bowl of hot water, she was less than careful and ended up spilling the water... on my little sister Bella who was just a teeny weeny cute two year old! I can actually still remember when they brought her back from the hospital, purple and crying :( I was very sad till she got better!

Day 15; Your favorite Tumblrs

I love Tumblr! I definitely don't miss Twitter with it. And no, I won't share my Tumblr. I'm enjoying the privacy on it. Well my favorite Tumblrs are...

Love Like Ecstasy
Fifth Avenue Prince
http://thequeenbey.tumblr.com/
And mine of course :)

Day 16; Your views on mainstream music

Frankly, I am not a fan. I prefer old classic music. I like music with true meaning, not just talking nonsense on a mad beat which is what majority of mainstream music is.

That's it! I'll try not to miss anymore days.
xxx

Monday, June 13, 2011

30 Day Challenge (Day 13)

Day 13; Somewhere you'd like to move or visit.
New York
I LOVE New York. Everytime I've been, I had a blast. It's vibrant and exciting and just my kinda place. I love the shopping in NY too! I definitely want to live in New York sometime in my life.

A nice apartment with an amazing view ;)

A Quick Reminder...

*Stolen from Colin's phone ;)*

Sunday, June 12, 2011

30 day Challenge (Day 11 & 12)

Day 11: Put your iPod on shuffle and write 10 songs that pop up.

*Drake- I'm Ready For You
*Lil Wayne ft. Kanye West- Lollipop Remix
*Celine Dion- If Walls Could Talk
*Celine Dion- All By Myself
*Lil Wayne & Juelz Santana- Bad Side
*Lil Wayne- Run This Town
*Lil Wayne- Banned From TV
*Boyz II Men- You Make Me Feel
*Drake- The Resistance
*Beyonce- Get Me Bodied

Day 12: Bullet Your Whole Day

*Woke up
*Went back to bad
*Woke up again
*Went to town with Colin to get snacks
*Went back to his room
*Ate
*Went back to bed
*Woke up again (LOL)
*Watched a movie
*Tumbled (this means I was on Tumblr. Not actually tumbling about)
*Went back to sleep
*Woke up
*Now watching another movie and browsing.

Am I having a lazy day or what?! It's summer baby ;)

Friday, June 10, 2011

Summer 2011...Legooo!

So summer school's finally over! :D

I wrote my Biology final exam today; it was better than I expected. I also said goodbye to the folks at work today. I would be on the next plane home but I am making some clothes with my trusty tailor here so when they are ready, then I shall be out.

I think this is going to be a GREAT summer. I go back to a new house (my family moved just about a week ago) and I can't wait to see the new place. Sounds fab from all they've told me. Also can't wait to get back to CIVILIZATION where I can decide to go see a movie, go bowling or swimming ANYTIME I please! Don't know how I've lived in Yola all these years. It is ABSOLUTELY boring!

I'll be working, a proper internship at a production company but it'll be for 4-6 hours a day and it's something I enjoy so I doubt I'll have complains. Besides, all play and no work makes Tara useless and fat.

There is also the issue of summer love :) A new summer romance is exciting. I think it is healthy to have a new boyfriend every summer. Unless the one you have is great, then you can use him more than a summer I guess. Yes, I am aware that I said "use him". For this summer, I would like to make use of a tall and dark, well built fellow that isn't clingy and possessive. Also, he needs to be photogenic cause I love to take photos.

Photos :) The pool, ice cream, movies, SPA, SHOPPING, LAZING about, sleeping late, catching cruise with Bee and Obi... yes this summer will be fun!

P.s I finally got amazing purple nail polish today! Can't wait to use it.

P.s again Cookie's bday is tomoro! The big 21. I changed my mind about clubbing tonight (sprained foot is still healing) but I have a bottle of vodka for the occasion. Hope I don't have a hangover to deal with tomoro.

Xxx

30 Day Challenge (Day 10)

Day 10; Discuss your first love and your first kiss.

My first kiss was with my first love. He is a cool guy by guy standards and we started off as friends before the lovey dovey feelings came up. I was just 14 when we started going out! He was 14 too. We had fun. When the thing scattered, I was really hurt and I couldn't move on from him for a whole two years after we officially broke up. Smh. Sad.

So our first kiss was at his house. It was a bit weird cause one of his friends was there and the friend had just found out we were dating and thought it was really cute so he asked to see a kiss. It was literally a peck on the lips and very brief too but I went home with butterflies in my tummy that day. I don't think his friend knew that was our first kiss! LOL.

Thursday, June 9, 2011

30 Day Challenge (Day 9)

Day 9; How do you hope your future will be like.

Not to be a party pooper but this is kinda the same question as Day 2 which was "Where would you like to be in 10 years?" Anyway I'll go ahead...

I would like my future to be a sunny and bright one cause I feel like I've had my fair share of gloomy days. Fine, I don't expect it to be ALL rosy, but I want it to be mostly a happy one.

I want success, love, and peace in my life in future.

Xxx

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

30 Day Challenge (Day 8)

Hello!

I didn't miss today :) Today's been a half good, half bad day. Don't wanna talk about the bad but the good is TODAY WAS THE LAST DAY OF CLASSES for Summer school. Fantastic much! I nearly floated out of the Biology lab when mister was done today. It was about time! I still have the final exam on Friday so I can't go into offline mode where school is concerned just yet...

So Day 8, a moment you felt the most satisfied with your life. I would say so far, that would be Graduation day. Amidst everything, it was REAL nice to see my happiness on my fam's faces and the way I felt inside, I was proud of myself and extremely grateful to God so... yeah! That's it :)

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

30 Day Challenge (Day 6 & 7)


And I missed another day. Yesterday I sprained my foot so my 30 day challenge was the last thing on my mind!

I'm here now so leggo!

Day 6; Write 30 interesting facts about yourself.

Ha, they shouldn't have used the word interesting. Well I'll try.
1. I like pain (sometimes) and I have expressed that with a few tattoos and piercings.
2. I'm not a people person but man cannot be an island so I try.
3. I adore Beyonce!
4. I don't have secrets. Well not really.
5. I'm a cool nerd. LOL
6. I used to hate pink but now, I love it, thanks to my BFF.
7. Also thanks to my BFF, I joined #teamnaturalhair last year and it's going amazing so far :)
8. My mum is one of my best friends.
9. I'm one of the few people who thinks all Destiny's Child members were fabulous. People are so mean to Kelly and Michelle sometimes, Michelle especially!
10. I hated Chris Brown when he first came out but I liked his music.
11. I cannot stand Justin Bieber and his hair flip.
12. I'm easy to please and also easy to piss off.
13. I avoid drama mainly but when I'm ready, ah... it's not pretty!
14. I love good music. Not such a fan of mainstream/ commercial music.
15. I love oldies!
16. I love "sad" love songs.
17. An easy way for me to deal with pain or disappointment has always been withdrawal.
18. I like doing things in MY OWN time. That's when I get things done right.
19. I dream of being a successful and widely known musician; just like Beyonce! :)
20. Finding my own Jay Z wouldn't hurt!
21. I'm finding this list VERY hard to do.
22. I often wonder how cool it'll be to take a bit off my boobs and put it behind x_x
23. I normally have a tough time getting the things I want, but I always end up getting them. I'm blessed like that.
24. Contrary to what most people think, I am not spoiled at all! Privileged fine, but definitely not spoiled.
25. I recently took a stand to make myself happy before anyone else. I used to do it the other way round but that didn't work out for me.
26. I want to have twins when I'm older.
27. A good way to my heart is through an amazing foot rub.
28. I try to fight it but truth be told, I'm a romantic. I love love. LOL
29. I work very hard but when I decide to take a chill pill, you can't get me to be serious.
30. I'm a firm believer in the saying "if you want it done right, do it yourself!". 

*sigh* Was that interesting? If not, sorry. That's the best I could do!

On to Day 7; Your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality.

I don't believe in zodiac signs first of all. But assuming I did, I'm an Aquarian and I guess some of the supposed traits of Aquarians do fit my personality. Examples; trustworthy, loves being in long relationships, eccentric and unpredictable. Then some are complete lies such as rude, insensitive and non-comittal. I am none of those things! Not naturally anyway. 

Person who came up with THIS has SERIOUS beef with an Aquarian somewhere!
Till tomorrow! xxx

Sunday, June 5, 2011

30 Day Challenge (Day 4 and 5)

I doubt there's anyone who was up watching my blog and going "darn it! She missed Day 4!" but let's flatter me and assume there was. So next I will proceed to apologize to that person... or people (did I push my luck? LOL). What can I say, I'm kinda excited to have missed a day. Shows I have a life... somewhat. Well of course I have a life! If not this blog would be kinda irrelevant... I'm rambling aren't I? Speaking of, I tried to label my posts yesterday and majority went under the label "Ranting". And now, so will this one cause I have TOTALLY gone off track!

*Stop it Tara!* Okay. I'm back :) So Day 4. My views on religion.

That picture sums up my view on religion. It's really about love; loving God and letting Him love you. 

Now, Day 5. A time you thought about ending your own life.

Okay that's deep! Who comes up with these questions anyway. I'll skip this one!

xxx

Saturday, June 4, 2011

Oh Dear!

I woke up at past 9 this morning (applaud. I'm an early riser) and I lay in bed till 11am wondering what to do with myself. My boredom and the lack of useful internet led me to open Photo Booth on my MacBook but I couldn't even take a decent photo. The red hair had gotten old. So I got off my ass, and headed to town to change my hair.

Bank first for money, market for the weave and then the hair salon. I should have probably taken my hair out myself and washed it in school because these salons in Nigeria make it seem like having natural hair is a crime. The lady who took my weave out, washed and dried my hair and then braided it... I have no words for her. She needs to beg God for forgiveness tonight.

As if that were not enough, my stylist takes one look at the weave I bought and informs me that it's a fake. There go the cute curls I had in mind! I was gonna have him curl the hair with a curling iron after fixing it. I should probably blame myself. I normally check the weave texture and all to know if it's the right one before I leave the shop but today, I was in such a rush for no apparent reason.

Summary, I have a new hairstyle now which I detest and a banging headache to boot. Luckily, I have pain killers and a pretty face so I won't let today's experience bring me down. Since getting back, I have gone through my lipstick collection to identify the colors that would make the hairstyle a bit tolerable and I am thinking chunky earrings will help make it look okay too.

I've never been a hat/ beanie/ things to put on your head person but now I'm wishing I was! As far as hair accessories go, all I have is this cute leopard print bow a friend made for me a few months ago. But leopard print... that's not something you can wear all the time. Or is it? I will need comments; feedback on whether or not I can utilize this bow!




P.S Y'all won't believe how many pictures I had to take before getting these two! Smh. I feel ugly and I miss that red hair! :(

Tribute to the World's Best Best Friend

I don't have many friends and lately, I have lost more friends than I have made new ones. But I've been lucky to have the most amazing best friend. As far as friends go, she is IT! Maybe it's cause of her I never feel my social case is critical; come rain, come shine, she's there for me to lean on and talk to. 

She never criticizes, rather she advises. She cheers me on and supports me in all my dreams; both the realistic ones and the ones that are a bit out there. We can talk on the phone for hours about just anything and we never run out on what to say! She's my sister. Aside from my blood sisters Bella and Rachel, she's the only other person who I can tell everything to. She is my BFF Ekpa Eyoma.

I am basking in the awesomeness of her after a 3 hour Skype call with her last night (I never got to my dorm spa treatment!) so I decided it is about time I gave her her very own post :)

Photo of us from high school x_x

She's a model. Beautiful huh? :)


She's one of the few friends I can now say I've known for a decade come September! A decade! It is not beans I tell you. And I wouldn't be the (slightly) level headed and responsible young woman that I am today without her influence. 

I love her like a fat child loves cake! LOL. And her 21st birthday is in exactly a week. Can't believe I'm gonna miss it :(

Friday, June 3, 2011

30 Day Challenge (Day 3)

Day 3; Your view on alcohol and drugs

If you cannot handle it, don't do it. 
Moderation is key too!

Dulling Friday night. I'm going to give myself a dorm spa treatment :) xoxo

Thursday, June 2, 2011

Day 2: 30 Day Challenge

What's up!

Yeah I'm in a better mood today, thank Jah.

Day 2; Where you'd like to be in 10 years

That's easy! I'll be 30 then (sweet baby Jesus! x_x) so I'd like to be married and have my two kids already. I want to be a hot mum so better to get them out of the way before 30 and get my body back. There shall be no letting go for moi!

Also I would like to be an established and wealthy entertainer :D and if I could speak French or Spanish fluently by then, that would be lovely.

That's about it.

Toodles! [Don't ask -_-]

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

JUNE! + Beginning of my 30 day challenge

Happy new month darling people.

June and I am still in school. Damn, this year is emotional. Speaking of emotional, I just realized I've had seven days straight of an emotional slump. Not good. Can't wait to get out of here!!! All the one reason to be glad it's June now. Means my release is near. You know I liken being here, to doing time in prison and I'm almost out! LOL

Since June is 30 days, I decided to do my 30 day challenge this month. Y'all know what I'm talking about right?


I wasn't sure where to do this actually; Facebook, here or my Tumblr blog. Smh. I decided to go with here and Facebook. Tumblr already has it's own different "12 Day Challenge" which I will get to when I'm done with this one (even if it is homework oh! Boredom is a bissh) besides, I have few followers there so no need.

Anyways, before I ramble like I tend to, here goes!

Day 1: Your current relationship, if single discuss single life.

Like I said on Facebook, I think I should just skip this cause I really have NO FRIGGING IDEA where I stand. I didn't give details (cause I don't love Facebook as much as I love y'all here. LOL) but the thing is Colin and I are in highly troubled waters and I want to take some time away. He's gonna be here in school continuing the sentence when I get out so I guess that will be the time I need. 

If I really had to pick now though, I'll go with either 
a) Newly single and every intention of loving it. 
Or...
b) In a relationship that isn't so good at the moment. 

Sigh. Lord knows but I don't know why I still bother with guys. 

Till tomorrow!
Xxx