GOD IS GOOD!!!!

April 27th. God is good people. He is really good. This dreadful month ends in three days, this useless semester ends in ten days, my one year anniversary with Colin is in eleven days and I finally can breathe cause most of the semester's work is wrapping up.

Shall I say it again? God is so so GOOD.

I nearly got hit with Malaria. Monday was horrible. I felt so sick and sad and small and I really wanted my mummy but my boo boo was there, taking care of me and making me feel less miserable than I could have felt. He took me to the clinic yesterday and though I got an obscene amount of meds to take, I am now feeling better.

I submitted my Business Plan today. FINALLY! It feels so good to know that I am done with basically all my courses for the semester. Today was the last class for three courses. SBE, INF and CMD 443, Film Directing, my official favorite course in the four years I have been here. Yes people, this decides it. After conquering the world as an actress and singer, I will settle into the film making business, specifically as a director. Still, feel free to call me up before then to direct your movies. I do not mean to blow my own trumpet but I am good. Really good.

OMG, I just ranted away. Sorry about that.

Exams are next week but exams don't break me. They never have. I work for my grade during the course of the semester, not during exam week. And I am pretty confident that I have done some good work this semester. I for see As and Bs. Maybe a C in SBE but we reject it in Jesus' name, Amen!!!

Summer school starts next week and I was feeling like crap about it but I don't know what has come over me today; I feel like it's gonna be good. How bad can it be seriously? Two courses, five weeks, my boyfriend is here, and after it I am done with college. DONE! Doesn't sound so bad to me. Plus Bee might be coming! That would be the bestest :D

I am finally changing my hair tomorrow and those who know me well know that is a good thing. I love "change hair day". I just hope she gets it right; I'm trying out a new stylist cause I am too cheap to go all the way into town plus I am still kinda freaked out by the curfews and all. LOL. I don't leave this school unless I absolutely have to!

So yeah, this is one of them update posts. There is no message, no funny story, no big thing that has happened. I am just in a good mood and I felt the need to update those who care.

I love you my readers! Even if you never comment on the posts. At least you read. Xxx

Awake and Annoyed

Season's Greetings everyone. Hope everyone is having a fun Easter celebration. I am not but that was clear the moment it was certain that Bee wasn't going to come to Yola to see me. Useless protests in the North. Thank you very much Jonathan or whoever is to blame.

Anyways, my break has just been there. Same old; sleep, watch movies, spend time with Colin, spend time with me...don't feel sorry for me. I enjoy my life the way it is. Most times anyway. I have been meaning to get to school work but that will wait till later today and all of tomorrow. It's a long holiday, thank the Lord.

So I was asleep. Not a comfortable sleep; my room is way too hot and you know it's serious coming from me cause I am not particularly crazy about cold rooms. My bed and my skin don't gel; I'm always itchy on it. And there seems to be an invisible swarm of mosquitoes that bother just me cause my roommates and everyone else in this room always seem relatively good. Me, I just feel them all over...yet I can't hide under the duvet cause of the "too hot" factor. Infact, as I write, I feel itchy but I dare not cover myself. Kmt. This is a tough life mehn.

Anyway, like I said, I was asleep and in undesirable conditions. And like it wasn't bad enough that I was sleeping so uncomfortably, these lousy roommates of mine chose tonight to laugh loudly and speak Hausa in their annoying high pitched voices. Did I say "chose tonight"? My bad, they do that ALL the time. People like these girls make me wonder why murder is a crime. You should be allowed to shut these kinda people up! It is only fair.

All their chatter woke me up; I woke up sweaty and incredibly pissed. First thing I did was change my BB status to "Homesick" with a sad smiley to go. "Sick of school" would be more appropriate cause I am not so homesick. I just would rather be anywhere than where I am right now. Morning aside, I've spent the whole day by myself, with my music, Facebook and Tumblr. And Lord knows it would have been one of those blissful days if I wasn't hearing these stupid girls even with my damn earphones on.

One of them isn't even a roommate. She is just always here. Annoying, so small yet extremely loud. If I could, I would snap her in two. The other two, my roommates, are also terribly annoying. One is fat and ugly and loud. You would expect that fat and ugly would mean she is withdrawn and more focused on doing something about her poor looks but NO! Aunty won't shut up and give me a moment's peace. The other one too. Now she has to be the most annoying! She doesn't make as much noise as the others. She just keeps looking at me every now and then and I just want to look her in the eye and go "What?" in a very cold voice. Probably throw in a roll of my eyes, but I think it's just better to ignore her.

Past one in the morning and they are still squealing like rats. Let God not punish these girls sha. Kmt.

P.S Lord knows I CANNOT sleep in this bed. I will itch and/or suffocate to death before morning!

Beautiful Women...Inside and Out

1. Rae Rae

2. Bella

3. Ekpa

4. Monica

5. My amazing mama, most beautiful of them all.

Nigeria Is Falling Down

Y'all know the song "London bridge is falling down"? Well Nigeria is on that tip!

I can't believe what is going on in this country. It is too sad and all for what? Power. A Facebook status I just saw says "when will the power of love instead of the love of power rule in this country?" I would sure like to know!

So apparently, the elections were free and fair (even if they allowed CHILDREN to vote. Anything is possible in Nigeria) and it appears Goodluck Jonathan is our winner. Ummm...DUH! Anyone who didn't already know that would happen is either unrealistically hopeful or just plain dumb. PDP will keep winning. Get with it!

What is sad is that people now have to die over this. All these people who start these fights over politics, not to sound like a terrorist, but did it ever occur to them to target the dirty politicians themselves instead of making poor civilians pay for it?

Kano and Kaduna on fire. Madness in Abuja. Even peaceful Yola. We never fight in Yola! But not this time around. For the first time in four years I have been here, fighting has broken out and a 6pm curfew has been passed on. I just want to say I am grateful Atiku owns this school and not Jonathan. Omo, we for dey for hot soup now. Or rather, others will be in hot soup and I will be in Abuja in my father's house. I would be smart enough not to have come back after Spring Break if GEJ owned this school!

Lord, please Nigeria is in your hands. Protect us all. Amen.

P.S RIP to the souls that have been lost over this madness.

True Strength

Lately, I've been under a lot of stress and undergone a lot of changes in my life. It gets overwhelming and the temptation to stay in bed all day and not deal with any of it is always there. Always.

But a common saying, especially for Christians is "God will not give you what you cannot handle". Another is "what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger". Word and word!

I guess true maturity and strength lies in how you deal with the parts of your life that are less than easy. I have to keep moving, keep my head above. It'll all pay off at the end of the day hopefully.

Return to Twitter...Yes or No?

Lately, I have been contemplating a return to the land of Twitter. I don't know why; guess I am way too bored or blogging so constantly has gotten annoying and I really do need that outlet. But when I remember my past Twitter horrors, I am tempted to go back to old-fashioned diary writing.

Like I said in my post "Privacy", the amebo on Twitter is a little overwhelming! Then again I set myself up for that by not having a Private account from the start and having those kind of tweets that make crazy people want to follow you cause they think you are just as mad as they are.

I have decided to ignore the Twitter bug inside of me. But if I do decide to return, here are the mistakes I won't be making the second time around.

1. The "getting so many followers" frenzy
    I had almost 560 followers when I ran away. And I realize that the more followers I got, the more annoying Twitter got. Next time around, it will not be a popularity contest. I see people with 30 followers. That is more normal! Why would you want so many creeps and crazies seeing your tweets and having access to you and your life? Something very wrong with that if you ask me!

2. Public account vs Private account
    With my last Twitter account, I went Private TOO late. Do you know the implications of having a public account? Let me just repeat myself; Too many crazies having access to you!

3. The "why did you unfollow me" convo
    Never follow someone you know you will eventually unfollow. And you can tell! Before you follow someone, read through their TL. You can tell from the last 10-20 tweets if the person is someone on your wavelength. Don't follow someone to be nice. Follow cause you get that person and their tweets won't ever make you want to slap them hard across the face. I made that mistake A LOT. I'm too nice for my own good (don't worry, working on it!).

4. Subs
    I hate subs! OMG, subs make me want to report the person subbing to Twitter authorities and have their account closed. Do not be a chicken! It's online for the love of God. Most that will happen is a trade of insults and you can block each other after it or make up and apologize. But subbing is just low.
    Now I wasn't a sub-er (LOL. You go fear Twitter terms) but I did let sub-ers get away scot free. I know when a sub is at me. I just know. And before, I would shake my head and free it. None of that in round 2! Sub me and I will be on your case.

5. Stupid hashtags/ trends
    Never be responsible for a stupid hashtag and never participate in one. It will come back to you. LOL

Okay that's all of it. Hmmm, it turned out to be an educational blog after all. "What to do and what not to do on Twitter". LOL.

I miss Twitter sha. I actually do! Shocking stuff -_-

Notes from Spring 2011

Someone remind me NEVER in my life to stay in a 4 in 1 again. It is not for me. I cannot do it. That is bullocks.

Someone remind me NEVER to tolerate people for a reason as crap as "so there will be peace". Fine, but there still won't be peace. Not on the inside of you.

Someone remind me to STOP placing so much on certain relationships. People will shock you with their own perceptions.

Someone remind me NEVER to give up a good thing like a pad off campus.

And last but not the least, someone remind me to ALWAYS do what makes ME happy from the start. Managing conditions can run one mental.

All the things I would rather do than STUDY

It's my final semester and also the first semester I have ever tackled six courses. I've sorta been taking it easy all semester because well like I said, it's my last! Person don try; four years now, I been slaving in school, making good grades and making momma and papa happy at the end of every semester. It's not beans oh.

But even though I detest this trait in myself, I can't shake it. I'm a nerd. A cool one, but a nerd all the same. I HAVE to do well in school. I have to go to class even when I tell myself that's a load of crap. Before I leave the point which I tend to do a lot, this semester I still go to classes, ask and answer questions like a good student and turn in my assignments when I should but somehow STILL, I have let a lot of work pile up. Okay maybe it just seems like a lot of work in my head (like Colin said, I probably just need to get organized and allot times to each thing I have to do). Point is there is work sha!

So instead of my usual and more enjoyable plans, I decided I'm using tonight to tackle some of that work. Besides today was a rewarding day academically. I got 100% on my INF midterms and also nailed my final INF presentation in class. And I don't even like INF! Guy doesn't give a final exam so I basically already have my A in that course. This got me really motivated. I decided to get into school and give them. Wrap it up with a bang! Make daddy and mummy and all the others who care proud.

Yet what have I spent my time doing so far? First, I've been blogging like Blogger is shutting down tomorrow. Don't know where all the chat is coming from. Second, I have redesigned my Blogging page. Third, I browsed Facebook for a bit but low key cause I am giving that a break. So no comments or nothing like that. Chatted with two people and then lied to them that I'm sleepy and that's how I cut out. What do I want to be discussing with you by 2 in the morning? Eh? Then I've read some other blogs and now I am actually feeling tired. So much for getting some work done!

This internet of a thing...get as e be. Ugh, I am not good at writing pidgin at all. LOL. x

My Privacy

I'm going to be a superstar soon. I already know this. Don't need anyone telling me. Sha, in that respect, privacy is gonna become a rare commodity. And so now while I can still have it, I ain't messing with it. Not at all.

Twitter. Blood of Jesus! That place is mad oh. As at the time I left, I had 560 followers. And I was following like 190 and we have celebrities among that 190 who weren't following me back. So you can do the maths. 300+ RANDOM people having access to my thoughts, frustrations, joys...name it.

I couldn't do it again mehn. Asin I no fit. In my last post I said Twitter brings out the amebo in people. Yes! And I am ashamed to say it brought out the amebo in me myself. Random people I give no shit about...I'll be there with my phone, waiting for Ubersocial to open their profile. Then I'll look at their bio. Some are so stupid I'd laugh and insult the person. Some so cool I'd be in awe of their awesomeness and probably follow till I realize what jerks they are and then unfollow. Then some avatars...moment of silence please. Avatars are a good way people SHOW themselves PROPER on Twitter. One of the people I was following always, and I mean ALWAYS had an unattractive avatar. I realized this after a while and stopped opening his avatars to enlarge. Then it got to the point I had to unfollow him.

Anyways, all this talk about Twitter is over yarns. In addition to closing that craziness, I am now stingy with my BB pin. Yes! Stingy. That's what I said. Why should every Tom, Dick and Harry have your pin? These are not the days when BB was new, the days it was shacking our brains and then having contacts was like competition.

"How many do you have now?"


"72 oh. And I've only had my BB 2 months!"


"Hmmm. You're feeling bad yeah? I have 104 contacts!"

Odes. Get a life will you? Get a damn life I beg you. 104 people can save your pictures. 104 people will know when you went out the night before cause you changed your dp. And 104 people have access to you...to piss you off and ask you stupid questions and ping you unnecessarily. Na mehn! I can't. I just cannot.

I love my privacy. I cherish it. And from now on, I only share what I want to share with whom I want to share it with. This blog and my protected Facebook will do for those I don't tell much.

xxx

Thanks for reading!

People are actually reading this blog oh! And I thought that since I shut down my Twitter, my blog wouldn't have as much publicity. Which is actually fine with me. Like I explained to Gben Gben (a friend who also shut his Twitter down), I was sick and tired of everyone being so in touch with me. Like leave me alone and don't worry about what is going on in my life. Mind your own. I swear Twitter brings out the amebo in people but that is story for another day.

I just want to use this post to say thank you to those who read. I'm now on over 5000 views and it is all thanks to you guys! But y'all no dey try on the commenting side of things sha. How you just gonna read and zoom off? Drop a comment now. Let me know its not someone who feels bad for me that is just opening my blog everyday to keep view count up. Give me feedback when you read. ANYTHING! I'll reply, I promise. Unless your comment is too daft and therefore invalid. Then I will have to ignore you. I won't even reply with an insult cos I can't bring myself to that level of dodo-ness.

Before I rant off, can I just say I found my soul sistas in blogging today? They are hilarious, and the way they write...I can totally relate. I have been inspired by both ladies to put more entertainment in this blog and not make it such a "dear diary" one. I was doing that for my mummy. She reads it. Sweet huh? Mummy I love you and I want to apologize ahead of time incase I shock you with any future posts. It's just time for me to REALLY express myself. I will still try to keep it Christian and appropriate :)

Anyways, for those who would wanna check out the blogs I am talking about, the links are;
http://wazobiasays.blogspot.com/
http://renirambles.wordpress.com/

Stay cool people! Or hot. Whatever works for you. x

Long Way Home

The last lap is the toughest and somehow still, the easiest. Eight semesters in college and this one is without a doubt the most tasking academically, emotionally and socially. Not physically thank God. I'm looking good. LOL

In as much as it has been a tough semester, it has also been the semester that it has been easiest to cope with the toughness...if that makes any sense! Basically I'm learning to handle the undesirable parts of this semester, and I think I'm handling it well.

I was just spacing out in my head and I realized what a long semester this is! It ends in June as far as I am concerned cause I'm staying for summer school and there is hardly a break between this semester and the summer semester.

I'm suddenly grateful I got to go home for Spring Break. No way I would have stayed in this school January to June without losing my mind! And even now... I don't know how I'mma do it.

God is going to have to get me through this one! I have a long way home.

The "Anti-female" behavioral trait

You know how people are "antisocial"? I just realised I'm anti-female.

"What the heck does that mean?" you have probably asked yourself. Don't worry, I'll tell you.

What do antisocial people do? They don't socialize. They are the weird person who is quiet in a group of people, the one people will either ask "are you okay? Join in, will you?!" or totally ignore because they can't deal with that.

So on that note, an anti-female person like myself is antisocial in a group of females. Deep but that's what my head says so I'm going with it. Makes sense anyway. Where there is more than one female I am not close to (and I am close to like four females excluding my mum), I recoil. I am quiet, careful to speak and generally uninterested in whatever is going on.

I don't know why it's like that but it is what it is! 

4 Years Gone...Still Missing My Angel

The good die young. No kidding.

It's still so weird to talk about her, having to remember her, knowing that I'll never see her again.
This is no case of glorifying the dead.
She was a TRUE angel.
Beautiful inside and out,
Amazing mother and wife.
Also the best aunty a teenage girl could ever ask for!

I wish I could rewind time
Back to the last day I saw her
And I would tell her not to go to work that day
I would tell her about the accident that would claim her precious life
Anything to stop her, anything not to lose her

But God knows best why he called her back
With all the bad things happening in our world
It makes sense she isn't here to see them
My angel is back in heaven now
And I know she is forever watching over me.

RIP Violet Mbakwe Nwakibu.
I miss you and I love you...
But God loves you more :*

Goodbye Twitter!

I finally packed up my Twitter house.
I couldn't live there anymore.
My neighbors got tiring
And the visitors alarmingly annoying
I realized I don't want to be updated on people's lives...
I don't really care!
Those that matter, I will go looking for
And those who want to know what is up with me
Well, they will come to find out!
People's stupid opinions on stuff
I no longer want to see on my phone
I thought I would miss it
But I certainly do not!
Goodbye Twitter...
We'll see again when I'm famous and I need to open one for the fans! LOL